Is It Hard To Say......... 'I LOVE YOU'

while i was sitting here with someone, i was thinking... think, think, and think... well, why do people love someone & it is very hard for them to say 'I LOVE YOU'... i really don't understand that... WHY....?? for me, i love someone, and i do tell him everytime & i wish the same way... but yet, he did not give good response.. he always said that HE LIKES ME, but the way he treats me is like his girlfriend.. well, i am his girlfriend but why can't he just say that word...?? is it that hard to say..?? now i'm thinking again... does he loves me or he is just pretending..?? from the physical, yes he is.. but when it turns out to be the feelings, its just not fair!! really not fair!! i really dont know.. i just hope for the best!! he is like everything to me!! obviously yes coz he is my baby.. but why...??
darling, why is it so hard...?? why cant you just say that to ME..?? huh, if you do, why cant you prove it to me...?? WHY...?? i told you like so many times... but you..?? OMG!! i wish you feel what i felt.. to get you, is not that easy!! but i did and i'm very thankful for that.. i love you.. and why cant you just understand the meaning of I LOVE YOU...?? HA...?? i do and it really hurts everytime knowing that u didnt reply it!! it hurts, man.. really bad!! i just want you to just try.. i'm not angry but deep inside my heart, its like killing me... everytime i told you, and you will only say NOTHING!! NOTHING!! well, if i'm at your place, i will be saying it many times.. baby, it is really true that you dont need to say that thing really often to prove that you love me.. but sometimes i really nedd to hear it from you!! YOU!! NOT ANYONE ELSE THAT I DONT LOVE!! and why cant u just understand that simple thing...?? i tried so hard to understand you and you problems but i did it successfully.. but how about you..?? and one more thing, why do you thing that its a problem if someone knows about us..?? that we are together.. i just feel weird!! SO WEIRD!! i love you so much more than anything else and i really mean it.. i've been waiting for you like a month or more!! i've been screaming inside my heart but did you know about that..?? do you know..?? i was so hurt.. it hurts so much.. but well, we get together finally!! i love you, i love you so much.. but i cant just pretend that i dont care.. actually i care to much for you.. haih, so sad la IHSAN!! i love you IHSAN, no matter what.. i'll continue later, ok..