Is It Hard To Say......... 'I LOVE YOU'

while i was sitting here with someone, i was thinking... think, think, and think... well, why do people love someone & it is very hard for them to say 'I LOVE YOU'... i really don't understand that... WHY....?? for me, i love someone, and i do tell him everytime & i wish the same way... but yet, he did not give good response.. he always said that HE LIKES ME, but the way he treats me is like his girlfriend.. well, i am his girlfriend but why can't he just say that word...?? is it that hard to say..?? now i'm thinking again... does he loves me or he is just pretending..?? from the physical, yes he is.. but when it turns out to be the feelings, its just not fair!! really not fair!! i really dont know.. i just hope for the best!! he is like everything to me!! obviously yes coz he is my baby.. but why...??
darling, why is it so hard...?? why cant you just say that to ME..?? huh, if you do, why cant you prove it to me...?? WHY...?? i told you like so many times... but you..?? OMG!! i wish you feel what i felt.. to get you, is not that easy!! but i did and i'm very thankful for that.. i love you.. and why cant you just understand the meaning of I LOVE YOU...?? HA...?? i do and it really hurts everytime knowing that u didnt reply it!! it hurts, man.. really bad!! i just want you to just try.. i'm not angry but deep inside my heart, its like killing me... everytime i told you, and you will only say NOTHING!! NOTHING!! well, if i'm at your place, i will be saying it many times.. baby, it is really true that you dont need to say that thing really often to prove that you love me.. but sometimes i really nedd to hear it from you!! YOU!! NOT ANYONE ELSE THAT I DONT LOVE!! and why cant u just understand that simple thing...?? i tried so hard to understand you and you problems but i did it successfully.. but how about you..?? and one more thing, why do you thing that its a problem if someone knows about us..?? that we are together.. i just feel weird!! SO WEIRD!! i love you so much more than anything else and i really mean it.. i've been waiting for you like a month or more!! i've been screaming inside my heart but did you know about that..?? do you know..?? i was so hurt.. it hurts so much.. but well, we get together finally!! i love you, i love you so much.. but i cant just pretend that i dont care.. actually i care to much for you.. haih, so sad la IHSAN!! i love you IHSAN, no matter what.. i'll continue later, ok..

Giving Yourself a second Chance

i'm updating my facebook today.. well, today was quite confusing.. i don't really know why but still, it makes me think.. why can't i give myself a second chance..?? yeah, if the first chance was bad, take the second chance to be better.. from good to better, and from better to best..
people in this world are afraid if they might not have the second chance.. but they are totally wrong.. if you can't get the second chance, that means, you have to give yourself a second chance by keep moving on.. the world does not ends here.. still far away to go.. why should you waste your time thinking something that will not be yours..?? something that has disappeared..?? something that is not worth it to think about..?? why should you..??

that's why you have to learn to give and take.. i learnt my lesson today.. so, i'm moving forward.. nah, i admit that it is not that easy but i'm trying.. if you lose once, doesn't mean that you will lose forever.. you will get your chance.. and once you got it, you gonna know that the GOD is so kind.. reading the books is not the same as the real life.. maybe they have experienced it then they try to share it.. but different people, different problems.. so, stand up and fight for it..
i wana share something with you guys.. since the day i broke up with my hubby, until now i can't even forget about him.. honestly, it hurts everytime seeing him with other girls.. but him...?? does he feel the same way as me..?? we won't know.. but since lots of people asking and telling me to move on, well i'm trying.. but slowly.. guys, i'm falling in love with this I guy.. i love him so much.. but it is too early that i felt in love with him.. coz we met only twice.. from that moment, he opens my eyes to keep moving on.. if you keep on waiting, its just gonna waste your time isn't it..??

yeah,
so i moved on but!! still i cant forget about D.. this I guy has something that makes me love him so much.. but how can i tell him..?? he is too perfect for me.. but i believe in myself that i will get that chance to just talk to him.. pray for me, guys.. he is nice, kind, kinda good looking, educated and... and... i love him.. i keep on thinking about him.. he always message me on facebook.. but, huh.. i have to wait til the perfect time.. should i ask him out..?? should i talk to him..?? should i tell him that i love him..?? OH GOD, it's too complicated.. well, if my brother knows, i'm gonna be dead.. coz he knows this guy.. if he opens my blog, just wana tell him that I LOVE YOU I GUY..
so, my days gonna be brighter than before.. thanks to my friends who helped me a lot.. thanks guys.. I LOVE YOU GUYS..

LIFE IS ABOUT MOVING ON!!

All the things I have,
All i could be,
I'd give up to bring you to me..
I'd rather have bad times with you,
Than good times with someone else..
I'd rather be beside you in a storm,
Than safe and warm by myself..
I'd give hard times together,
Than to have it easy apart..
Remember I'd always love you, baby..
You are the one who holds my heart..
i'll always love you, danial azhar<3

13th november 2009